and it sucks, but i'm trying extremely hard.
it may hurt like a bitch now but i'm going to come out of this stronger than ever.
haha, what a foreign concept.. i didnt know i could teach myself to be strong, i never really needed to, and i didn't think i could
but hey, what do ya know.
and it will all be worth it in the end.
my memory of it all is slowly fading and it's like i'm re-learning everything
honestly, i'm becoming a different person, but the changes are positive
i'm learning more about myself and i know what my priorities should be
but it's sad that i have to try to forget;
i really don't want to forget even just the memories, but i feel like i have to because they may hold me back
"You cannot discover new oceans unless you have the courage to lose sight of the shore"
anyway, at the moment, all i have are my fears and growing knowledge (duhh, title?)..
i haven't really gotten my heart back yet and it's going to be hard to repair this,
but i'm working on it.
it's just good to know that this is just a tougher than usual obstacle in my life, but i'm going to get through it with class. i will make it through (positive thinking, haiii)
it's a learning experience; that i should never let my guard down like that again..
i wish i didn't have to let go,
but i guess it just is time that i do
and i guess this is how i'm trying..
blehhh, time for a nap
night, yo!
♡ -Camille
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"The feelings you keep, will neither bind you or set you free."
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